It is so hard to not compare what we had in St Thomas to what we have in Toronto. I am really trying to embrace the here and now. Embrace where we are and what we are doing. Well embracing what I am doing is easy because quite frankly I am not doing a whole lot besides my work and homeschooling my daughter. I should be okay with that but I need more, so much more.
I count down the days to when I will see someone from back home or when we will be returning for a visit for a few days so I can feel connected again and fellowship with friends and family. I know I should look for the same thing here in Toronto but it is not something you can look for. People have their own groups of friends already and their lives are busy enough so it is so hard to break in.
There are so many things I love about Toronto and all it has to offer. From the entertainment to our new home church, but for some reason the lack of connecting is really difficult for me. It seems like it has been forever since I have got out for lunch or a coffee or been able to just stop in and visit someone. Okay it hasn't been forever but the last time was when we went back home before Christmas. Notice a theme here.
Even though Toronto is only 2 hours from our former home it seems like light years away as far as how friendly the people are to talk to. I mean I am used to going out to a store and just talking to whoever is there but that isn't the case here. It is like everyone is in a hurry and has no time to connect.
I am going to go day by day and continue to EMBRACE my life here in Toronto but it would be so much easier if I could just connect some where a long the line but until then I have you to help me along this journey.